5 Months Later…

Remember this post? I wrote how thrilling when waiting baby to be born. The nervous wait was something that had never happened to me before.

The baby is now 5 months old. So many things she can do now; I remember when she was born, she just slept and cried (mostly sleep, which can be up to 12 hours a day).

I thought waiting for a baby to be born was the ultimate test for me. I was wrong…

First Two Month

The first 2 months have been hell for me. I can’t sleep well, eat well, and lose my sanity.

I don’t know if it just happened to me or not. When the baby came out for the first time, I felt happy and loved her very much.

But.

One month later, I hated her.

I am outraged when I face her. I want to avoid her. But I can’t. I don’t know why.

The reason may be that I lost my everyday daily life, or the cause was not sleeping well. I don’t know.

But seeing my wife more exhausted gives me strength some how.

“She has given birth, yet she has all the energy to feed and do anything else. Why I can’t do that.”

In the first two months, my wife and I really work hard to raise the baby. The baby should eat every 2 hours; that is the part of my wife. After she finishes feeding the baby, I should carry the baby for on my shoulders up to 30 minutes so the milk cannot throw out again. That is because the baby’s stomach doesn’t have a valve to keep food from coming out.

My shoulder feels numb. My back feels hurt. Remember, I have not slept well at that time.

Lucky me, the mother in law helping me when the baby can’t sleep. Cary over when diapers time, etc. But still, we feel exhausted.

Even my wife often cries. She must be accompanied. When she cries, she always hugs me and asks for forgiveness. She often said,“I am afraid.”

And until now, my wife has had a side effect after giving birth. She has high blood pressure and a tremor in her hand and neck. We even have to do an MRI to ensure it is not a severe issue. (we have another story for that).

3 Months and moving forward

I am still unsure when, but we have adapted to the situation.

We have done a great job of training our baby to sleep. The baby slept from 8 PM to 7.30 AM and woke twice to eat.

The baby is aware that the parents are struggling; she smiles a lot and doesn’t have much drama. Since then, the growth of the love is sprout and stronger every day passed. We can’t stand the cuteness.

Look at her. She is so beautiful.